recession

Every morning I try to frame a new positive quote for the day, so that I can stay strong and be bold to take whatever comes my way. But I guess all the positive quotes are coming to an end now. I am tired of being strong. The US economy is going down-n- down every day. Had hope about the status before but now everything seems so bleak. Every morning I here that loads of people have been fired, so many are out of jobs. And I consider myself so lucky that I am not in that bad a position, as the others are. At least I have someone back home who can still take care of me as lovingly as they ever. There are so many well experienced people who have a family, who they have to support at the end of the day, and they are all jobless now. It’s all so bad!!! It’s not a problem forum kind of stuff that I want to open here. But I just want to think if all this pain is worth taking?

Do I have to give so much of mental strain every minute that I do not even have a nice sleep at the end of the day? Is it all right giving so much of pain to my parents who are so far away from me, thinking every minute about what I would be facing in this alien place? Is this United States worth all this??? We Indians have been working so much, giving our best to this country. What would have been the status of this US if not the huge Asian population? Can these guys work as hard as an Asian does? No ways!!! I now think if all we Indian would have worked this hard for our mother land, not expecting the great benefits this country offers, it would have been a brighter more vibrant India by now.

At least I do not have to worry about being thrown out of the country there. And more importantly I can survive happily even with a 100 bucks in my pocket. I will not have to worry about my credit card payments all the while. I will not have to worry about the Overdraft fee or the heavy APR that I would be paying at the end of the day. It’s true that I will have no more of Aeropostale, Abercrombie & Fitch, and No more Hollister, Coach Bags, Prada glasses and Burberry perfumes. But if I want, I can freak out with my friend without the thought that I would be given a ticket, I will not have to worry about my credit history and rather relax at the pani poori bandi near my house. It’s said that “The grass is always greener on the other side” I don’t know if I want to imply to that or say that I have discovered my real longingness to go back home now. For good or bad, recession has taught me new things. I am done thinking about my status, thinking about my bank loan, thinking about all the questions that I will have to face of being jobless.