bug menace..

At a point of time when the whole world is sitting up and awaiting to talk about the glorious moment when the first african american takes up as the 44th president of the US of A, I am so dejected to talk about something that has been so badly sucking my blood out... and that is about the awful, disgusting, terrifying, unpleasant BED BUGS.. i even hate to highlight it but i just do that to show how much i hate them...i get up in the morning only to count the new number of spots they have chosen for the day, and force me to think how many liters of my blood have they suck today. It seems like crazy but i started studying about bed bugs now. what are they exactly.. how do they live... on what all they feed and how they do that.. And alarmingly i find that it’s just not me who is being tortured by these menacing creatures but a whole big bunch of them out there.
For the first initial days of my time here in America i never knew what bugs were like... like a fairy in a wonder land i always heard stories about it, but i never ever saw them... but wait.. What was it that i just wrote?? I’ve compared these gorsy bed bugs with the cute fairies... i dont think i really wanted to do that [:P] anyways, and now... when i moved to this new place and thought that my life would be really exciting now on... i find it coming so true in a different way with these monstrous bugs...but there surely is a bright side to it tooo... im learning about these lentils kind'a creatures these days. ahaaa... but that shouldn’t let you think that I don’t hate them as much as I do..

if i was given one wish at this point of time that would surely be to free this planet from bed bugs...

hmm...

or maybe not [:P]

the menace continues.....

relations

was watching this film Fireproof... and started thinking all bout relationships.
How strange they are
How complicated they become at times
How carefully they have to be handled
And most importantly how beautiful they can make your life least they have been played right :)

i actually don’t know what exactly i deducted from that and what i want to pen down here.. Maybe i wanted to gauge about it here. How good or bad i have been with them. How happy i am with those and what changes i want to bring in to them. Have i been a good daughter, sister, a good friend or a good lover so far....

Or maybe not!!!!!

Today i think about the relationship that i hold with myself. This thought kind a surprises me. i haven’t thought about it so far.... never ever tried to analyze what is the kind of relation that i hold with my own self. i realize that i haven’t given much attention to this one. i have been so grossly entangled in satisfying, nurturing my other relations that i have completely ignored the one that i hold with my own self. And now time has given me a fair part of itself to bridge this gap and keep pace with the rest.

Good luck to me with this very new relation :)

V.O.I.D

feel like time has come to an end.
find myself drowned in this ocean of emptiness.
in a state of emotional void
i suddenly can not feel anything
facking on the outside as good and going

but...

this emptiness is killing me
how do i come out of it
ma mind is dying to get out of it
and my heart dosent listen to it

searcing for reasons

my heart screams out loud
that i can make no more comprimises
yelling to do what it says
and now....
decided to listen to it
no matter its gona hurt me the same

i hate taking decisions
but i have to
y is it that most of the time we will have to do
what we dont want to do???
i hate it!!!!!

ReSoLUtIOnS

New year z around the corner
n i guess every one might be up with their ResolutionS list :)

last year i resolved to make "NO Resolutions"
and i understood it was a veryyy bad idea... :(
every thing went on so hazyly...
was not prepared for anything.. but things just happend...

i dont like that now!!
i hate that feeling of powelessness...

but that taught me something
that its Destiny that finally will Rule
no matter what you do
no matter how hard you hit
its all in its hands

you gotcha do your best and just leave the rest!!

with all this in my mind
i have decided to make up my Resolutions List for this year

and

that would be working on to....



1. Speak out my mind aloud...

2. talk less... and think more :) :)

3. Do your Best and just leave the Rest


would be glad if people can jot down their piece of mind too.. :)

Satisfaction

Every day i wake up with a thought,
yet another day has passed by and what is it that i have added..

what is it that i have done?
so i can count back to the end

we tend to run so fast in this busy world
trying to catch up things that "we think" should not miss
but rare is it
that we strive to get what "we feel" like doing

trying to catch the big picture of life
we often tend to ignore the very small picture
that can add immense joy in our life

life today has become so mechanical
running for things that are so artificial

none has the time to sit back and think for people around,
for the creatures with us, for the generations to come

none has the time to listen with a sympathetic ear,
nor has the patience to care for any other...

if this is what continues
what is it that we are gona leave back for our children?

in what conditions are we gona bring them up??

we ourselves are consuming every thing be it water, air, land, animals...
not just consuming.. but polluting them too..
breaking the family bonds...
not caring for another human...

and what would they have left for them

no more fresh water to drink...
no more fresh air to breath..
and show their kids how a butterfly looks like


SCARY is that thought!!!

people have to start thinking
not just about the present and about themselves
but about the society and generations to come

every one can help in their own way
give back some thing to the society, people around us..
either by planting a tree or just a smile to the other

we can surely make this a beautiful life where when we look back
we would have contentment, happiness and SATISFACTION of living a life like this